FUCK im sick of you butting your nose in to everybody else's business it has nothing to do with you! you have no fuck right i swear im guna punch you and if i punch you once i wont stop! so angry!

Im very dissapointed in you.

What were you thinking?

Had my party last night.

Had heaps of fun!

Only a few dramas of the night but got sorted fast lols.

Hope everyone that came had fun.

Thank you ta everyone that came it ment a lot to me

xx*ILOVEEYOUU ALL*xx
Killa Bees : )

The most selfish 1 letter word: I. Avoid it.

The most satisfying 2 letter word: We. Use it.

 The most poisonous 3 letter word: Ego. Kill it.

 The most used 4 letter word: Love. Value it.

The most pleasing 5 letter word: Smile. Keep it.

The fastest spreading 6 letter word: Rumour. Ignore it.

 The hardest working 7 letter word: Success. Achieve it.

 The most enviable 8 letter word: Jealousy. Distance it.

The most powerful 9 letter word: Knowledge. Acquire it.

The most essential 10 letter word: Confidence. Trust it.

Mate I have never laughed soo much in mi life!

Just had Krystal, Terri, Dayna and Shayla hea 4 the night!

Well where the hell do I start?

Dayna and Shayla fell off Kea (the horse) we were lauhing for ages. . .

we went for a motorbike ride and a walk.

Dad then took us up2 the Hutt we were taken pictures it was quite fun.

played with the beach ball that was crack up as.

They made me a mean as cake it was a padock with a horse in it so cool!

Anyways it was a good couple of days hope they enjoyed it as much as it did!

**ILOVEEYOUUGUYSS**

16 today!!!

YAY I GOTTA RAISE HAHA!

Im gunna bash luke in a minute!

I build walls to see who cares enough to break them down.

I finally learned what life is about. . .

hanging on when your hearts had enough. . .

and giving more when you wanna give up. . .

Working all holidays again. . .

Not really looking foward to it but atlest ill be earning money. . .

Hoping not to get bitten this time. . .

WE GOT THE BUGGER!!!

Shame you big prick!

you caused all this shit in our family,

I knew we would get you it was just a matter of when.

You hid from us for one whole year,

but we got you!

the best thing is you didnt even know it was coming!

we got the last laugh HA!

Went to hollys party saturday nyt.

had lots of fun, no dramas,

was dancing the whole nyt lols.

xx

MAN WHY DO YOU HAVE TO ACT LIKE THAT?

It dont just reflect on you but it reflects on me to. . .

Mi birthday on sunday.

16 yay!

HAE BABE JUST MOVE ON. . . xx

MY JUMP WAS BETTER

Today dad peyton and I went for a ride on the quad.

on the way back dad started drifting, we started getting faster and faster. . .

We came up ta a little hill and we fully jumped and landed!

me and peyton were cracking up it was so funny.

But sorry daddy my jump was better HA HA HA.

A FRIENDS PROMISE

If you need to talk,

Ill listen.

If you need to cry,

Ill hold you.

If you feel lost,

Ill help guide you.

If you need to be angry,

Ill let you.

If your feeling afraid,

Ill comfort you.

If you feel attacked,

Ill be your defence.

If you need to lean awhile,

Ill give you a shoulder.

If your feeling unsure,

Ill be your confidence.

If your feeling alone,

Ill be the friend that wont leave you.

If you need to learn to trust again,

Ill prove to you that you can.

xx ILOVEEYOUU xx

Mess with me?

Bad idea.

Mess with my friends?

HA nice knowing you bitch!

Whats happening?

Why is all the shit following me?

Well it can FUCK OFF coz im ova it!

I cant keep doing this. . .

everytime something bad happens you come to me and its really hard for me not to say anything because i know it hurts your feelings but its happening too often. I thort he had changed? I dont mind beeing there for you in these times but what if one time I couldnt be there what would you do?

Is he really worth it?

LIFE IS TOO SHORT

to wake up in the morning with regrets, so, love the people who treat you right forgive the ones who dont and belive that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance take it.

If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised,

IT WOULD BE WORTH IT!

Hae hun. You know who you are.

with all the shit we have been throu and worked owt as friends i neva fort we would be as good as we are now, but thats just the way we are i spose. you have been throu alot lately. just wanting you ta know that i am here for you throu everything and if you need anything just let me know. I know we may disagree somethimes and we may argue but i do love you. these days we dont hang owt as much now but we will continue to be good friends.

iloveeyouu hun. xx :)

Hae Babe this was the best weekend had lots of fun. you look soo cute in this picture lols lovee youu Babe.xx

I wish YOU the best of luck in life!
You are gunna go far YOU know what YOU wanna do and guess what your doing it!
I miss our tawks we use to have, I miss the advice YOU gave me, I miss just knowin that YOU are there to tawk to. what happened? I dunno but what ever I did Im sorry.
YOU are gunna go far in life boy as i said from the start fuck what everyone thinks of YOU just go out there do what YOU do best, live your life and BE YOURSELF.
iloveeyouu xx

What is up with all the bitching these days?
To be honest I am quite fuckn over it!
All the acusing and blaming, Im just gunna tell you one thing before pointing the finger at others look at urself coz UR THE ONE TO BLAME AND YOU KNOW IT!

Why do you keep goin back to him?

he is hurtin you!

I hate seein you hurt I wanna do something but what can I do?

you ask for my advice but just ignore it!

Do you really wanna live the rest of your life a victim because thats what you are!

You know what maybe next time i shouldnt care, i mean i just wont give a shit.

I wont walk you to and from classes when your shit fuken scared of him even if it means turning up late to mine and i defenitly wont stick up for you when things go wrong. . .

yes i get it you love him and you want to belive what hes doing is right, i know deep down that you know what is going on is wrong, so why keep going back?

THREATING INNOCENT PEOPLE?

I really dont know how you can acually let him treat you that way. Ive got a definition for what he does and its called:

ABUSE!

You are losing everything. i dont agree with what the others did either they should of let you go but not him, he put you in that situation. whens it gunna stop? I dont care If you think im wrong but

IT AINT RIGHT YOU SHOULDNT BE TREATED LIKE THAT!

Please try and understand i never wanted it to get this bloody bad but when my brother gets threated and i dont care if you think he didnt coz it was in txt it becomes personal, he then hides behind your back and then we go at each other then what do you know thats it for us. . .

I guess you were right about one thing

HE WAS GUNNA COME BETWEEN US!

Anyway i wish you the best of luck in your life because your gunna need it, if anything happens to you I wont say i told you so but I knew it was gunna happen some day so

GOOD LUCK!!!

everyday i see you with the same depressed look on your face. what are you doing to yourself? you use to be so cute and innocent i could trust you. what happened? your not alone in this life you have friends that are worried about you but you keep pushing them away why

what about your family? stop being sooo bloody selfish because you need help and fast, before you lose everything you ever loved, your dreams, your, family,!

There are those among us who are blessed with the power to save,

what is loved by another.

But are powerless to use this blessing for love themselves.

2009

Im siting here now thinking about all the ups and downs of this year as it draws closer and closer to an end. I have made good choices and bad, made good friendships and lost some, began something and ended something. This has been a good year in my point of view that has gone by so fast. so to everyone that was apart of my awsome year thanks for making it everything it was!

BRING ON 2010!

Im sooo tired!

had work this morning then came home,

went for a 5km run,

and a motorbike ride with tiny.

My cousins taryn and peyton on christmas day!

Lukey in action!

CHRISTMAS AT MINE

Christmas at mine this year was pretty laid back and quite. NO dramas this year YAY!

heaps of prezzis, game of cricket and touch, mean feed, heaps of laughs.

And a suprise BABY.

Couldnt ask for much more this christmas.

One of the many laughs this christmas this is craig my cousin taryns boyfriend when he droped a pretty easy catch playing cricket and fell on his face hahaha!

JOFF

REST IN PEACE

CLANCEY<

UGG<

RIP<

LADY<

CASS<

GEORGE<

I HOPE YOUR OKAY AND ENJOYING YOUR NEW LIFE

ZIP<

SHADE<

XX I MISS YOU AND LOVEE YOUU! XX

Missing my friends! :(

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY! XXOOXX

The last few days i have been working at the kennals in those few days i have mannaged to almost be attacked by a rotwheller and a border collie yay! I have broken up 2 dog fights and spent 30mins chasing 4 border collies around the hill trying to get them back in their kennals lols. . . past all the negative stuff I have met some cool dogs and i am learning more dog breeds! ! !

I start work 2moro

6.30 wake up

7.30 start

YAY!

I manuled a quad bike in four wheel drive with three people on the back lols!

I'm at peytons at the moment it has been a crack up day we are always laughing. . . Just taken jazz for a walk down to the park she cracks me up me and Peyton were running around like spastics and jazz was chasing us being an idiot. . .

Why is it that you can give the bloody shit but you cant take and when it all gets too much you resort to others. . .
fight your own bloody battels im sick of your bullshit! ! !

I went to the shops today with petpet. . .

I brought jake and lukey there christmas presents, I hope they like them. . .

Im writing this while jake is next to me farting. . .

Ewww smelly bum. . .

(CLICK haha)

Today i see so many people give in to the temptation. . .

I ask myself why they had sooo much potential and sooo much talent. . .

I ask again why? ? ?

What is sooo good about the buzz for only a few hours what is the point when what you are doing can change your life with conquences. . .

There are people out there that would kill for YOUR talent. . .

There are people out there with no choice they have been given their life sentence. . .

You havent, you had a choice.

You have given yourself a time line to live by wanting it more and more untill you depend on it, your addiction then turns into regret, that turns into bad decisions, then its too LATE. . .

I say to myself what a bloody waste! ! !

YOUR FILTHY I SAID! ! !

Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her

heart doesn't cry.
And just because she comes off strong,

doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

WHO ARE OUR REAL FRIENDS

I'm sick of all the crap i am hearing why cant you just get over it? ? ?
Stop the bitching, the talking behind each others backs and the bloody boyfriend stealing.
If you do this you ain't a true friend. what do you expect? ? ?
how are we suppose to react when you do these things are we suppose to be algood with what you are doing? ? ?
think of the consequences before you act
-is it really worth lossing a friend? ? ?

TAKE A STAND

You said you loved me. I was always there when you needed a shoulder to cry on. They say you cant put a price on a life. You put a price on mine. just because i tripped at the third barrel. You send me here where a man is beating me. Screaming numbers in my ear. "SOLD." That was the last words I heard the man say. With one last slap on the rear I shed my first tear. As the oilman in the alley way says "load them up and well be on our way." The last thing that comes to mind is "WHY?" "couldn't you have give me one last try?
-STOP THE SLAUGHTER
-END THE ABUSE



I say to who ever thinks that this fucken crap is okay i would like you to step in there shoes for once. This is not okay! FUCK whoever does this they have no HEART! ! !

Strengh is nothing more than how well you hide the pain. . .

The past is done, its unchangeable move on. . .

THE MAN IN THE GLASS

"When you get what you want in this struggle for self and the world makes you king for a day,
Then you go to your mirror and look at yourself and see what the man has to say.
For it isnt you father, your mother, your wife, whos judgement of you-you must pass, the fellow whos verdict counts the most in your life,
Is the guy staring back in the glass.
he is the man you must please never mind all the rest,
for hes with you clear up to the end.
And you have passed your most difficult and dangerous test,
when the man in the glass is your friend,
you can be like another and chisel a plum,
and think your a wonderful guy,
but the man in the glass says you're only a bum,
If you cant look him straight in the eye.
you can fool the whole world, down the parthway of years,
and get pats on the back as you pass,
but your final rewards will be heartaces and tears,
If you've cheated the man in the glass. . ."
-DALE WINBROW

"The weak can never forgive. . .
Forgiveness is the attitude of the strong."
-NELSON MANDELA

"We can never forget but we must forgive."
-WAYNE BENNETT

I start work on the 18th! ! !
im working at the kennels and cattery. . .
its a fun job the only problem is im workin christmas day, boxing day and new years day! ! !
i dont mind thou coz its only for a few hours in the morning and i get paid time and a half. . .

I have just come home from working with my dad we had to cut down a deliver 90 christmas trees. . . it was hard work and to make it even worse it was raining and cold! ! ! but i dont mind coz im getting paid! ! ! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Its TERRI HAPE'S birthday 2moro happy 16th b-day love you! ! ! xx :P

I really like this guy and he just thinks were friends. . .
I duno what to do. . .
Maybe it just aint ment to be. . .

UHM. . .
I really dont know what to write about lols. . .

weekend at mine with fern

Fernie just spent the hole weekend at mine lols. . .
we went quad bike riding all around my property and i let fern have a go at driving (big mistake lols) i was sitting on the edge just incase i had ta put on the brakes and she took off really fast and i fell back with my legs in the air it was sooo funny. . .
we got the beach ball out and were playing around with it and fern hit it and it hit herself in the head twice (shot fern nice work haha). . .
fernie you really are a city girl arent you runing around the place trying to find reception lols and putting on make up everyday when you dont even need to hun haha poor girl. . .
and i wish i had my camera when we were helping my dad load up the truck with that wood, i think you lifted a bit all by yourself that would of weighed a hefty 15kg well done luv haha. . .
anyways i enjoyed this weekend hope you did to fernie. . . xx

SOME FRIENDS WE GOTTA LET GO

Some friends we just have to forget hun. . .
yes they may have been friends for quite some time which makes it hard to let them go. . .
Its not you hun its them they have changed and they are the ones misssing out on the cool beautiful fun person you are. . .
i love you hun and i will aways be here for you. . . xoxoxoxo

MI MEAAN AS WEEKEND

Well wea do i start. . . After touch on friday i stayed the night at my cousins peytons and we went shoping got some nice bras lols. . .
She them came back to mine wea we were mucking round beeing dicks and watching movies (we are always laughing). . .
On sunday we decided to go for a swim at our swimming hole so fun tiny came with us hes so funny he doesnt like the water that much so he kept jumping everywhere. . .
a bit futher down the river there was a stump so peyton went to have a look and noticed that there was a dead baby goat we decided we had to get it out of the water so using sticks we managed it smelt soo bad yuk! ! !
we soon got sick of that an decided to have some fun and run through the deer wallows lols that was sooooo fun we were filthy by the end of it so we went back to the river to wash off. . .
we then went back home and layed in the sun for an hour laughing at my dad mowing the lawns good work daddy. . .
Me and peyton were getting bored so went went back to the swimming hole and on the way down the bank peyton tripped and fell rolling down the hill to get caught in some branches it was soo funny but I couldnt laugh. . . peyton had grazes down her back and a cut up knee with a dead leg she was walking like an old nana. . . we decided to ditch the swim and go back home to watch a movie lols. . .
Anyways that was my weekend hope your algood now peyton lols love you hun. . .

This is me and Dan Carter! ! !

Hes sooo nice. . .

I even got a hug! ! !

This is my little brother lukey (JOFF) getting his award for league as most improved back (well done joff) hes with his coach tud and Norm hewitt. . . :)

"The longer I live the more I realize the impact of attuide on life.
Attitude, to me, is more important than the past,
than education,
than circumstances,
than failures,
than successes,
than what other people think say or do!
It is more important than apperance, giftedness or skill.
It will make or break a company. . .
A church. . .
A home. . .
The remarkable thing is that we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day we cannot change our past, we cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have and that is our attitude.
I am covinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it!
And so it is with YOU.
WE are incharge of our. . . . . . . . . . ATTITUDE!!!

" Ive traveled down some lonely roads both crooked and straight.
Ive learnt lifes creed summed it up in one word: MATE.
Im thinking back across the years and these words stick between my ears:
"You've got to have a mate"
My mind goes back to 43, to slavery and hate. When mans one chance to stay alive depended on his mate.
You'd slip and slither through the mud and curse your rotten fate.
But you'd hear a quite word: "Dont drop your bundle mate"
And through its all so long ago this truth I have to state:
A man doesnt know what lonely means till hes lost his mate.
If theres a life that follows this, if theres a golden gate, the words that I want to hear are just: "Good on ya mate"
And when Ive left the drivers seat, and handed in the plates, I'll tell old peter at the door, Ive come to join my mates."

"When a winner fails, he trains harder while a loser blames others.
When a winner makes a mistake he says "I was wrong."
A loser says "It wasnt my fault."
A winner feels responsible for more than his job.
A loser says "I only work here"
"There ought to be a better way to do it" says the winner.
Loser says "Thats the way its always been done here."
- Wayne Bennett

This is tiny our neapol mastiff after I snapped him digging. . .

He looked so cute and innocent I just had to take some pictures :P

This is Johnboy and kea
arent they cute little posers. . .
I love them soooo much. . .

Horses are mi life! ! !
JOHNBOY and KEA xoxo
love you forever. . .

Im creating mi blog at the moment. . .
i dont really know what i am doing
so fernie is helping me lolz. . .
THANKS FERN! ! ! xo

Teri, because you're so cab and a bit silly d; ,
I thought i'd post my link on your
page so you can access mine and you
can follow me and vice verca! :)

btw ; Peyton your a: dick.
:)

http://fernylouise.blogspot.com/